Ever since we told him the big news Jonathan has been acting differently towards me. Maybe the fact that I’m going to be his Step-Mom gave him the confidence he needed to feel like I really am part of his family. Maybe he’s just going through growing-up stuff and it would have happened anyway. Either way, it feels important and special that he’s been grabbing for my hand, snuggling up, writing me notes, etc. Mostly though I just feel really scared. I know it’s taken a lot for him to trust me, and I just don’t want to fuck it up. I’ve been telling him for years that I love him, and this week, for the first time ever he randomly said it out loud to me. They say it take 8 years to establish a step-family, I feel like we are on the right track.